Dream at Ten

Things I wanted to do when I was ten 1. Make a wagon into a restaurant & travel around the world having adventures with my invisible pet dinosaur. Most of the adventures would start with people buying food from us 2. Light things on fire to see how they would burn 3. Dig an underground fort & live there except at mealtime & at night because I hate dirt in my food & my pajamas 4. Discover a continent or an island & not tell my parents where it was because they’d just make me clean it ~Story People (Original Drawing #1847-Boxed Book Set)

1. wagon restaurant – how cool would that be
2. invisible pet dino- sweet I think I had one or a couple as a child.
3. always always a good thing to light stuff on fire- practice is key
4.underground fort- amazing- i love forts and this takes it to a whole new level
5. totally agree- find something new and unfound is a dream but google broke that one, but the not telling so you don’t have to clean it- like any ten year old- yes and yes

Real Reflection

That’s not my real reflection, she said. I’ve changed so much since then most people barely recognize me. ~Story People

I have been thinking and worrying the past couple weeks (ok, months) about this. I have a couple months before I will be home, but I know going home is going to be hard. Coming to Bulgaria and the Peace Corps was easy, it was like college for me, I could really be who I was beacuse no one knew me. Where the first 18 years of my life, someone always knew me or of me. But now I have to do something new, go back and be me or the old me. But I’m not and I know that but it is going to be hard to be both. Its also hard beacuse I know I have changed, who wouldn’t living by myself for 2 years in a small village in a foreign place you just do, not matter who would one way or another. But at the same time I don’t even know what has changed beacuse I live alone and talk in my head most days.

All in all its going to be interesting and hard to come home. We all change over time no matter where we are but its the knowing who to be with whom that gets confusing. You are still the same person but something change from views of life, wishes, dreams, hopes, values, and experiences that effect you in all of them. It is then how to put them all into your life as the old, new, and ever changing self!